Health, Vitality and Clothes

OKAY ANDIE | Health, Vitality and ClothesIT’S BEEN AWHILE, HASN’T IT?

I wish I could come up with some good reason why I haven’t updated this space in 2 months. It’s probably a combination of not feeling like writing unless it’s in the moment (which ends up on my insta), being a bit bored of blogging and going through a pretty rough bout of depression. Since going through my last depression, I’m trying to make a real effort to become aware of the signs while I’m well, and looking for ways to cope more appropriately (is there an appropriate way to cope?) so that if and when it comes back, I may not lose myself so badly. I didn’t realize how bad it really was until I came out of it. I’m a high functioning depressive, in that I’m still able to get out of bed, work, live, but my personal life and self-care always goes to shit. I wrote this on my insta, and I feel like it sums up alot of what I went through and how I processed my experience after:

“From what I can estimate, for the last month (edit: since writing this and having more time to recall, I was experiencing depression far longer than this) I had the veil of depression cloaked over me. Looking back now it’s so easy to see how delusional I was. During it, however, the delusion was my reality. I think I lost 5-10lbs from eating a disturbingly small amount. I spent whole days in bed counting the hours till I could go back to sleep. I became paranoid and anxious. I pushed people away. I started to believe everything was falling apart because my mind was falling apart. My brain felt like it was slowly killing me, and in a way, it was. Delusion is the hardest part to overcome when going through a depressive episode. No matter how many times a healthy minded person tells you you are loved and should feel hopeful, your sick brain tells you they don’t know anything. I am grateful to be on the other side right now, but that gratefulness only exists because of how sick I was. It’s a double edged sword. Andrew Solomon once said, “the opposite of depression is not happiness, but vitality”, and nothing has felt more accurate to me. Happiness doesn’t make you prosper, will does. “Where there’s a will, there’s a way.” and depression sucks that will, that vitality, into oblivion so there is no way. I have spent the last 15 years battling depression. That number, I imagine, would have you believe I have any idea what I’m doing, that I should be an expert at this point. But each time I fall into a depressive episode I feel like a child trying to figure out my new experience. The one thing that my struggle has consistently reminded me is that I need to speak about it. I need for others to know they are not alone. That maybe they can see themselves in my words. The truth is, knowing you are unique but not entirely unique in emotional experience can be of great comfort. There is no one else like you. No one else has your experience. But, experience can be shared. It can open doors so that we may see ourselves in someone else. So that while we may be trapped inside our respective bodies and minds, there is a connection that spans us all, because seeing others is seeing yourself.”

So there it is, slowly but surely trying to work myself back to health and vitality.

One thing that never wavered was my love for clothes and styling, obviously. My favourite season is here now and it’s helping me to feel more like myself. Blazers have taken over my wardrobe in a big way. I’ve brought 5 new-to me ones into my life over the last month (over-kill much?). As cliché as it sounds, they give me a sense of strength, which has been helpful while not actually feeling that way. Outfits like this are kind of my go-to when I’m unsure of what to wear or how I’m feeling about myself. I always know I will feel good in a pair of high waisted mom jeans, button down blouse and simple yet interesting (I wish I had a better word) accessories.

What are those clothes for you?


WHAT I WORE

Blazer: H&M (similar) | Vintage silk blouse: CS | Jeans: vintage Levi’s 512 | vintage purse: CS | vintage boots | Necklaces c/o Chupi and TKO | Earrings c/o TKO

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One Woman’s Trash…

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One of the things I love about my day job as a second-hand clothing buyer is having amazing – sometimes one of a kind – clothes fall into my lap, figuratively and quite literally. Take for example this vintage Wrangler denim jacket and page boy hat; two pieces I knew I would like in my closet after seeing others wear similar ones, but pieces I would likely never actively seek out on my own. Thing is, neither of these things are essentials (is anything other than one of something ever essential though?), so they become something left to fate…if I happen upon it one day, certainly I’ll purchase it (as long as it’s not too expensive), but if I don’t, that’s okay.  However, I am damn pleased these two came into my life, especially this denim jacket. I love this jacket! Love it. To be honest, I’ve never even owned a denim jacket. I’ve tried on my fair share of them in my life, but I never truly fancied any…until this one. The second I saw this one, before even trying it on, I knew it was what I had been holding out for – the indigo colour, the 70s cut (to the best of my knowledge it is from the 70s), the slightly worn, however sturdy denim…it’s just the best. I hope to be able to carry it with me throughout my life, so it kind of baffles my mind that someone decided to give it away. But as they say…one woman’s trash is another woman’s treasure and whatnot.

-WHAT I WORE-
Jacket: vintage Wrangler (similar) | Top: H&M | Skirt: BDG | Shoes: Nine West | Hat: vintage
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Mr. Summer

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It’s hard to believe the first day of Summer was just yesterday. I always feel like this season has come and gone, seemingly, in the blink of an eye. I’ve already gotten up to many outdoor adventures, which is kind of how I measure whether Summer was a good one or not, so it was surprising to realize I still have a few months left and already I have done so much. But comparatively, this Summer doesn’t have much to compete with when it comes to last Summer. Last Summer did feel like it went by in the blink of an eye. Gus’ back surgery pretty much kept me from doing anything or going anywhere, and I remember feeling pretty bummed, not only because my poor little Gus was having a rough go, but also because I really look forward to being able to get outside and go places, and I did very little of that. But that was then, and this is now. Times change. Things get worse before they can get better, and damn did they get better. Summer has just begun!

What are you looking forward to this Summer (that’s if you’re in the Northern Hemisphere)? Let me know in the comments below!

-WHAT I WORE-
Blouse: Common Sort | Shorts: Levi’s via Common Sort | Shoes: H&M | Sunglasses c/o Le Chateau | Choker: handmade
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May in June

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It had been quite awhile since I set off just myself to take outfit photos. It’s far more convenient to have others help me out, but I certainly missed the process of shooting myself. I will admit though, I think I needed the break. I was feeling a bit apathetic about the images and content I was creating for this space, which I’ve come to gather is why there has been far less posting around these parts. However, I was welcomed home from Mexico with a new lens, care of Zach (sweet one, he is), and I’m feeling pretty excited and rejuvenated by it. I guess it’s fitting that a new lens can literally change your perspective.

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As for the May dress, it’s my latest one from ACT THREE.‘s most recent collection, and I think my favourite from the label yet. I am usually not very drawn to 50s – early 60s silhouettes, but this dress still felt well suited to me, and once I tried it on it quickly became a favourite for the summer. The thing about this dress, the first time I wore it, I really felt great in it. It’s not too short, it’s not too tight, the fabric feels sturdy but lightweight enough for summer and it has sweet details like wooden buttons up the front and tied shoulder straps. It’s a gem this one, but I wouldn’t expect anything less from ACT THREE.

-WHAT I WORE-
Dress c/o ACT THREE. | Jacket: H&M (old) | Sandals: F21 (old, also not great quality) | Hat: thrifted vintage
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Orange You Glad

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It seems orange has quickly become a favourite colour of mine. I find the common denominator amongst many pieces I like is orange, not just in clothes, but in most anything. There have been a number of times now that Zach has laughed at me for wearing something that blends right into his couch. So I figured, if you can’t beat em, join em.

Zach just got in from his road trip last night and I’m pretty happy to have him back. Although, admittedly, I’ll miss living vicariously through his and Andrew’s beautiful pictures. But, I’ll be setting off to Tulum in 12 days, which as I type that makes me realize how soon that is! We still have some planning to do, so if you have any recommendations of where to eat and places to visit that maybe aren’t as popular, let us know. We want to see. it. all.

-WHAT I WORE-
Blouse & Scarf: vintage via Common Sort | Jeans: H&M
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