Health, Vitality and Clothes

OKAY ANDIE | Health, Vitality and ClothesIT’S BEEN AWHILE, HASN’T IT?

I wish I could come up with some good reason why I haven’t updated this space in 2 months. It’s probably a combination of not feeling like writing unless it’s in the moment (which ends up on my insta), being a bit bored of blogging and going through a pretty rough bout of depression. Since going through my last depression, I’m trying to make a real effort to become aware of the signs while I’m well, and looking for ways to cope more appropriately (is there an appropriate way to cope?) so that if and when it comes back, I may not lose myself so badly. I didn’t realize how bad it really was until I came out of it. I’m a high functioning depressive, in that I’m still able to get out of bed, work, live, but my personal life and self-care always goes to shit. I wrote this on my insta, and I feel like it sums up alot of what I went through and how I processed my experience after:

“From what I can estimate, for the last month (edit: since writing this and having more time to recall, I was experiencing depression far longer than this) I had the veil of depression cloaked over me. Looking back now it’s so easy to see how delusional I was. During it, however, the delusion was my reality. I think I lost 5-10lbs from eating a disturbingly small amount. I spent whole days in bed counting the hours till I could go back to sleep. I became paranoid and anxious. I pushed people away. I started to believe everything was falling apart because my mind was falling apart. My brain felt like it was slowly killing me, and in a way, it was. Delusion is the hardest part to overcome when going through a depressive episode. No matter how many times a healthy minded person tells you you are loved and should feel hopeful, your sick brain tells you they don’t know anything. I am grateful to be on the other side right now, but that gratefulness only exists because of how sick I was. It’s a double edged sword. Andrew Solomon once said, “the opposite of depression is not happiness, but vitality”, and nothing has felt more accurate to me. Happiness doesn’t make you prosper, will does. “Where there’s a will, there’s a way.” and depression sucks that will, that vitality, into oblivion so there is no way. I have spent the last 15 years battling depression. That number, I imagine, would have you believe I have any idea what I’m doing, that I should be an expert at this point. But each time I fall into a depressive episode I feel like a child trying to figure out my new experience. The one thing that my struggle has consistently reminded me is that I need to speak about it. I need for others to know they are not alone. That maybe they can see themselves in my words. The truth is, knowing you are unique but not entirely unique in emotional experience can be of great comfort. There is no one else like you. No one else has your experience. But, experience can be shared. It can open doors so that we may see ourselves in someone else. So that while we may be trapped inside our respective bodies and minds, there is a connection that spans us all, because seeing others is seeing yourself.”

So there it is, slowly but surely trying to work myself back to health and vitality.

One thing that never wavered was my love for clothes and styling, obviously. My favourite season is here now and it’s helping me to feel more like myself. Blazers have taken over my wardrobe in a big way. I’ve brought 5 new-to me ones into my life over the last month (over-kill much?). As cliché as it sounds, they give me a sense of strength, which has been helpful while not actually feeling that way. Outfits like this are kind of my go-to when I’m unsure of what to wear or how I’m feeling about myself. I always know I will feel good in a pair of high waisted mom jeans, button down blouse and simple yet interesting (I wish I had a better word) accessories.

What are those clothes for you?


WHAT I WORE

Blazer: H&M (similar) | Vintage silk blouse: CS | Jeans: vintage Levi’s 512 | vintage purse: CS | vintage boots | Necklaces c/o Chupi and TKO | Earrings c/o TKO

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All Things

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I really don’t wear skirts and dresses as much as I used to. I have become a full fledged pants and trouser lover which is something I thought I would never say again. I have this theory, I guess you could call it,  that we always revert back to our former selves when it comes to fashion and aesthetics, like a circle of style, if you will. That something you once loved as a kid will be something you begin to love again one day. As a young child I really loved skirts, dresses, all things feminine and the colour pink (I named all of my stuffed animals “Pinky”…), as I got a bit older I shed those things for tomboy looks and then black eventually became my colour of choice in my teens (goth lyyyyyfe). If you know anything about me from visiting this space over the last several years, my girlish self was in full force – cutesy looks, the colour pink, again, as my favourite. But within this year I’ve become more accustomed to masculine looks and styles, the less frilly, and clearly I am no enemy to black. I guess it’s not so far off from styles of decades past recycling themselves in current fashion trends. There are little cycles within littles cycles, within littler cycles going on all the time in life, and that goes beyond fashion and exist witinh ethics and even societal issues. “History repeats itself” has always felt like one of the truest statements, to me. I have always wondered why that is. Does nostalgia drive us more than we think it does? I often feel nostalgic for times I didn’t even exist in, which seems absolutely absurd, but it’s a feeling I know doesn’t just exist for me. Who knows why these things happen, who knows why I have what seems like two different people that exist inside me, one trumping the other at certain times in my life. It’s something I have come to learn and love about myself, though, and it’s something that has become of great interest to me.

Do you guys notice these things about yourself as well? It’s a topic I’ve never really discussed with anyone. Let me know in the comments below.

-WHAT I WORE-
Jacket: Ruby Leather via CS | Dress: Vintage | Shirt & Bag: Zara | Shoes: Dr. Martens
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Clothes To Wear

Larkspur Vintage | Clothes To WearLarkspur Vintage | Clothes To WearAs a blogger, sometimes you get sent clothes that are just not what you expected. Actually, I believe that is a general rule for buying any clothes online; it may not fit because you can’t try it on and you don’t get the chance to see or feel the quality beforehand. There have been many times, with both gifted items and ones bought myself, where I just end up selling it or giving it away because it was not what I expected or did not fit. That, however, has never been the case with my Mod Dolly pieces. Their pieces have always been true to size (at least, for me), the quality is fantastic, especially for an independent label and they are totally practical items to have  in my closet. The thing about my Mod Dolly pieces is that I can actually live in them. Some of the clothes I have, I worry about them ripping or getting stained, or not being able to stand everyday wear and tear. But my Mod Dolly pieces have never felt that way. Sure, they are adorable and feminine, but they are tough and sturdy and make me feel my best when wearing them. And that’s what I want in clothes. I want them to reflect me, in all ways. Not just in style, but in actual wearability. I want them to be able to withstand my lifestyle. Sure, some clothes are mean’t for special occasions, mean’t for gentle care. Those pieces are special, but they’ll never be as special as the pieces that join me through my whole life; the average and the outstanding, the good and the bad.

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Beauty: An Autumn Makeup Tutorial

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My favourite, however fleeting, season is here, and with that comes out golden shadows, plum coloured blushers and berry red lipsticks. While the style of my makeup generally stays the same year round, it’s the colours I change up with the changing seasons, so I thought today I’d share a tutorial oh how to achieve this autumnal look I have been wearing recently. Let get to it, shall we?!

Products used in order of appearance
Primer: Rimmel Stay Matte Primer
Eyeshadows: Teeez Cosmetics Spectrum of Stars in Vanilla Bunbeam, gold shade from NYX Beauty School Dropout palette, Teeez Cosmetics Spectrum of Stars in Sepia Shine, dark orange shade from NYX BSD palette and matte white shade from NYX BSD palette
Eyeliner: Revlon Color Stay Liquid Liner in Blackest Black
Mascara: Benefit Cosmetics Roller Lash
Bronzer: lighter brown shade NYX BSD palette
Blusher: Plum shade in NYX BSD palette
Highlighter: NYX Bright Idea Illuminating Stick in Chardonnay Shimmer
Lipstick: Teeez Cosmetics Sealed with a Kiss in Dash of Plum
Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup Look1. Prime lids and sweep a gold shadow along the top and below your lid; this part doesn’t have to look perfect, we are going to clean up the shadow with some blending later.Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup Look2. Pack a shimmery orangey brown shade to your crease and the outer corner of your lid and then blend blend blend. This will create a subtle smokey eye. Finish it off with a matte white or cream shadow highlight underneath your brow and in the inner corner of your eye. Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup Look3. Line your upper lash line with a cat eye/winged style.Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup Look4. Add mascara to your upper and lower lashes.
Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup Look5. contour cheek bones, jawline, temples and forehead with a bronzer.
Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup Look6. Sweep blusher along your cheek bones and apples.Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup Look7. Smooth a shimmery highlight along your cheekbones.Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup Look8. Apply a berry red shade to lips.Larkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup LookLarkspur Vintage | Autumnal Makeup LookAnd you’re done! You have become a dreamy autumnal princess ❤

Do you think you’ll try this look out? What autumnal looks have you been wearing this season? And of course, if you have any questions, do no hesitate to ask in the comments below.

A Perfect Match

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I’ve avoided midi length anything for what feels like ages. I used to absolutely love midi skirts and dresses (any of you that have followed me since the start know this), but at some point minis called to me more and then any time I tried something longer I didn’t like how it looked. So when I decided on this dress I wasn’t really sure how I would feel in it. Aesthetically, and in theory, it’s everything I like in a dress – 70s inspired, a beautiful colour with a fun (matchstick) print, high gathered neckline, pleated voile sleeve cuffs and a flowing skirt – but while it may sound appealing, it doesn’t necessarily mean it will actually be something I am happy and comfortable in. However, I took a chance on it for whatever reason (well actually, for the reasons I listed above) and after twirling about in this fluttery number, I am absolutely sold.

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Sometimes shooting can be aggravating and I walk away dissatisfied. Other times it feels fresh and inspired and I walk away feeling like I made something I am proud of. For this set it was the latter. Naturally I can thank myself for that, but I think it’s also due in part to the dress. Clothes often have this magical way of bringing a part of yourself to the surface that sometimes feels tucked away.

-WHAT I WORE-
Dress c/o Miss Patina | Hat & Belt: vintage | Boots: Zara via CS
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