Outfit: A Work in Progress

Larkspur Vintage | Outfit: A Work in ProgressLarkspur Vintage | Outfit: A Work in ProgressIt’s been very very slow going getting my apartment together. I only just put up my kitchen curtains (that you are probably familiar with if you’ve been following this blog for a long while) and this pink shelf pictured above. I still have yet to hang some other shelving units and some art, buy a couch, a coffee table, a rug, and probably a book shelf or some other type of storage unit. When I moved I wanted to rid myself of a lot of stuff that I felt a disconnect from and start fresh in a new (sort of) space. I used to be able to furnish a whole apartment by myself, but now it just sort of looks like I am perpetually moving in, lacking some of the core pieces that make a house feel like home. It is odd behavior for me, to not feel a sense of urgency when it comes to getting my apartment together and spotless. I have been reflecting a lot about it, about why, before, I felt almost crazed about getting things together, to a pretty unhealthy degree. I often wonder if my anti-anxiety/depressant medication is the cause for my relaxation and ease with things that once threw me into a frenzy of stress. It probably is. I mean, right around the time I started settling into these meds did I start to actually become a way more relaxed person. It’s nice. I like it, but I also hate it, a lot. It’s that classic thing you see in movies and read in books – artist types who don’t want to take their meds because they no longer feel inspired, they no longer feel that drive to create. That’s how I feel in a sense. On the one hand, I feel good. I feel way more balanced and “normal”…how I imagine most people to feel. But on the other hand, I don’t feel that urgency I once did, to constantly be moving, and working and caring…really caring. But, such is the way of my life I guess. I am either caring so much it makes me ill, or I am rendered so chill I could take or leave most things. But, being me and being a human feels like a constant work in progress. I am glad I can see these things in myself and work to form a happy marriage between those two sides, because neither are inherently bad, they just need to learn to work together to create that desired balance that often feels out of reach.
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Belt: thrifted vintage

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6 thoughts on “Outfit: A Work in Progress

  1. visupulse says:

    That looks great – the outfit is so simple but also really cleverly put together. Nice photos too. I notice your hair is longer now, are you keeping it like that or is it going to go back to the original long bob?

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  2. Mariah says:

    I completely understand the anxiety around unpacking. I am 100% that way. When Michael and I first moved into our cabin I unpacked and cleaned the entire house in one evening while he was at work. It was exhausting and yet empowering and I felt proud of myself.
    With this move, I’ve been so exhausted and stressed, I’m lucky if I do one box a day, and the looming boxes around me feel like they’re crushing me. It’s like I can’t breathe.
    Your apartment looks lovely, as do you.
    Loving the pink shelf.
    Here’s to slow unpacking.
    💛 Mariah Alysz

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  3. whatmamamakes says:

    We moved a year ago and are still unpacking! Haven’t hung up much art work and only have crucial window coverings up! It’ll get there! I think it’s worth it to take your time to find things you really love 🙂 ps. love the outfit

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