HAPPY NEW YEAR FREAKS!

Larkspur Vintage | Happy New Year Freaks!My plan was to take some really adorable and festive New Years photos, but they didn’t quite work out the way I wanted. However, when I started going through the captures, they kind of turned out better than I expected…a few cute, yes, but a lot of them mostly funny, and ya’ll know I like funny. Not everything works out the way you planned, I learned that in 2015…it doesn’t always work as planned, but sometimes it turns out infinitely better. I remember starting out last year with a blog post, talking about how happy I was to see 2014 go, to have a new year ahead of me and a bad one behind me. 2015 wasn’t perfect, to be honest, most of it was shit. It felt like 2014 ended not great, the bad got worse in 2015, and then I resolved to make a change and happiness almost immediately found it’s way back into my life. I have good feelings about 2016, I really do. Although, often it feels silly to measure life and it’s obstacles based on the passing of years. You don’t need a new year to resolve to change your life or hope that things will get better. The passing of time is so infinitely subjective, and I think my “new year” started 5 months ago.

I want to thank you guys for being here and on my instagram, which has become a huge part of what I do now. I don’t often allow myself to sit down and really see how far this space and myself have come since the beginning of last year. I have a hard time being proud of myself, which is both a curse and a gift – it pushes me to consistently strive for better work, but it never allows me the space to see positive outcomes and truly sit with them. I want to always remain humble, but I hope to one day feel proud of myself the way a loving parent feels pride in their child.

Aside from all that seriousness, honestly guys, thank you for being here. Thank you for reading and commenting and being so kind. Things got a little quiet here nearing the end of year, I really hope to make a change in that respect. I’m hoping this year I can finally take the leap in making this my full time gig and give you the rest of myself that hasn’t been able to be here due to time constraints. Here’s to hoping, being fearless and moving ever upward. Much love to you all and Happy New Year ❤
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Happy Holidays

Larkspur Vintage | Happy HolidaysLarkspur Vintage | Happy HolidaysI’m currently sat in my parents kitchen after eating a butt load of cinnamon buns and unwrapping what is the most exciting amount of lush bath bombs my eyes could behold, and I thought it appropriate to wish you all a very Happy Holidays, whether you celebrate it or not. Gus is currently wearing his Santa suit, although, the hat has made a disappearance because it really seems to upset him (he was just staring at the floor until I took it off), but it makes me laugh (and I’m the boss), so I’m sure to get a snap of him in the outfit every year, which I guess has now become tradition (here, here). I should probably get back to family time, but I hope you all have a wonderful day. Let me know about any fun gifts you gave, or got, or things you did! I want to hear all about it ❤

Larkspur Vintage for Zeum Issue 11

Zeum Magazine Issue 11I’m happy to finally share that I (along with some other rad ladies) was interviewed for Zeum Issue 11. This stunning publication has now been released on UK stands and will be coming to Toronto, Japan and Austria very soon. If you’ve been reading this blog for a long while, than you know I have worked with Editor-in-chief and fashion photographer extraordinaire, Danielle Suzanne many times and feel so lucky to be a part of this labor of love and well-respected magazine. It still feels surreal when anyone wants to interview me or that even one person would be interested in my life, but hey, the internet is a strange place and I guess I have found my place somewhere in it. The image below was the original image Danielle took of me for the publication, however, I went and chopped my hair off and we thought it made more sense to share my updated look, so my own picture (shot by me) went to print, which also feels pretty surreal, if you ask me.

You can find Zeum irl at these locations. If Zeum doesn’t make it’s way to your part of the world, you can purchase online here (ships internationally), or download a digital copy here.Larkspur Vintage | Larkspur Vintage for Zeum shot by Danielle SuzanneLarkspur Vintage | Larkspur Vintage for Zeum

The Art Of Getting By

Larkspur Vintage | The Art Of Getting BySo as I had mentioned in my last post, quite a big change has been going on in my life, and I feel like this space has been suffering because of it. I’ve always felt like I’ve done a pretty good job when it comes to keeping this place updated, even when things are not ideal in my personal life. This blog means a whole to me, and I feel a great deal of guilt whenever I am unable, or feeling not well enough to keep it up to date. You also know I try to be as open about my personal life as reasonably possible here, so it feels appropriate to share what has been going on.

The short of it is Ryan and I have broken up. Something that is disheartening in ways, but was also necessary. Because we live together, things have been a bit all over the place. I have been looking for a new place to live, with very little success, and that has caused me a great deal of stress, which has lead me to try to ignore my current situation and spend as much time with the people that make me feel happy. In a lot of ways, I am feeling better than I have felt in a long time, but also feeling slightly chaotic in my mind. But such is the way with these things. It’s something many experience, and you come out of it, usually in a much better place – I feel very strongly about that.

Relationships can be so difficult, but also incredibly enriching . My friends sometimes joke about the amount of boyfriends I’ve had, and for a long time I felt bad about my inability to keep a relationship going after the 2 year mark. But not everyone is the same. I know people who have been with their partner for years, ready for marriage, and I know an equal amount of people who have fulfilling relationships that don’t last forever. I like to think that every relationship I’ve had has been a lesson for me and something I actively reflect upon. I’ve got to spend years with some incredibly amazing and wonderful people who have changed and bettered my life in so many ways. They may not have been it for me, but they were something for me that I will always feel positively about. I like thinking that I carry a piece of each of them with me, helping me to become the best possible version of myself. I don’t keep a ton of people surrounding me, but the ones I do are the ones I feel really bring something special to my life, which goes beyond romantic relationships.

Anyways, that’s the gist of it. I know probably some can relate to this, so while talking about it seems maybe like it’s just for me, I think it’s also a feeling many understand, and I always hope when I share my struggles in life, however small or insignificant, that someone can feel a connection or find comfort from it. That’s why I love blogging so much. The connection and the people I reach are the most important thing to me; it’s what keeps me here.

Love you all, and thank you for being patient with me ❤

Carnival Colour Theory

Larkspur Vintage | Carnival Colour TheoryLarkspur Vintage | Carnival Colour TheoryI’ve been going to the CNE – or what I more fondly like to call The Ex – since I can remember. The Ex would make it’s way to Ottawa (where I grew up) every Summer and I have countless memories of going there with my family and friends, loving all the colourful rides and candy as a wee one. I continued going as a teenager, although my enjoyment for it was for very different reasons at that point…read: flirting and spending time with my crush(es) and trying to look cute. When I moved to Toronto it felt like The Ex came with me (not really, because it’s been here forever), and so I have been frequenting it as an adult almost every Summer since my move 8 years ago. I think it’s safe to say I know the CNE quite well at this point, and have memories upon memories of time spent there. I figured since I shot my latest outfit post at the CNE grounds, it only made sense that I would also share some of the ornate rides and visually appealing colour combinations seen throughout the park, which is one of the biggest reasons I am so drawn to the CNE as an adult…aside from riding the Polar Express and eating disgustingly delicious food.
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